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Now is almost the ending of My UTAR year 1 sem 3 life. Everything is seem just like happen yesterday. What have I done for this period? What achievement have I achieve? What have I get from this entire 1 year? But the answer I can tell you all is I done nothing, I achieve nothing and I got nothing from this year.

I think there an alternate answer for what have I get from this entire 1 year. I get known of many new friends. I get precious memory from all of them. I experience something new that I never try before. I learn how to interpersonal communicate. This is what I get from UTAR. Every task that I get from UTAR I wan to complete by own way but not copy others. I do not like plagiarism. A result get by own effort even it is worse I also satisfied cause I can know my ability in particular field. This is my rule. Every result I get is not a mark of my ability but a level that I achieve so that I can prepare to do more complicated task. What I wan to know is how far I can go. I will happy if work with the people that have same rule with me.

Now the final exam is approaching. I still not able to recover from the laziness disease. Some more still got an assignment have not complete yet and it near to the submission dateline. I gonna crazy if keep to rush like that. Now left 1 more presentation, after the presentation I think it will be more relief. But will follow later is the final exam. Don't know how high the gpa point will I get this sem. It is really an unpredictable. I wonder how much effort will I put for this sem. This kind of attitude can found mostly on Malaysia student. Malaysian is quiet great one because we able to achieve good thing even fight at last minute. I wonder what will happen if this kind of attitude apply on Malaysia army. Will they win a battle with enemy by training at last minute? This is the habit most UTAR student have. A minute before go into the exam hall. All student still holding a note and keep revise what they had learned from the entire sem. Please, an good athlete wont training before a minute when going for competition. I want to declare I not pointing this statement to anyone. It just my founding at UTAR.

Again, the word 'lonely'. What do you think by lonely? It that lonely mean you do not have friend or do not have someone that wish to stay by your side? I feel lonely but I don't know why I feel lonely. I lonely when sometime I was very down or very bored or extremely bored. I will full 21 at this year 5th October. I also wonder when I start wan to try another kind of love except the love from family and friends. This feeling get stronger year by year. During age of 19-20, I got lose control before. Fortunately, now is in control. Sure someday will lose control again. Need to find remedy for this.

I wan to be stronger. Increase the endurance no matter from the aspect of physical or mental. It is crucial for my future. I need stronger body to stand for any physical challenge and obstacle.Strong mental for longer concentration and resisting of negative thinking. I wan to become a coward to lose but I wan to become brave to try. I start my physical training. I go for gym workout. 3 days in 1 week. This has last for 9 month already. But I still don know the way to improve mental strength. I have find it out. Cause next sem i wan have a longer concentration in class.

Today I do not much special about my life to talk so I write all what have appear in my mind now. Will stop right now.